Sometime last year, it feels like the pace of my life accelerated to a phenomenal rate. I would venture that just before I started working in California was when it happened. Since then much like a particle accelerated in a linear accelerator, it feels like I am moving forward at a frantic pace. Maybe it is just me, but it feels like that. The start of this year does not seem to slow down much either.
Not that I am not thankful for everything that has happened. Living in the SF Bay area. Experiencing San Francisco and Los Angeles. Working on some pretty nifty Android technology, all the while learning more and more. Seeing one of my best friends get married to the love of his life. Visiting Poland, Germany, Italy and Austria. Learning how to windsail. Getting more involved in writing and editing. Becoming a lot more self-reliant and independent. Becoming closer to the people I care about. These and so much more I am truly grateful for.
There have been painful times and experience along the way as well. The loneliness of not knowing anyone close in California. Having to change jobs three times in a single year. The stress and anxiety that came with those and so many other moments. But that is all just part of the growing process I guess. Still the whole life hurtling forward of its own accord, feels unsettling. Maybe I am just getting old. Maybe all the bad decisions of procrastinating have come back to bite me. But it would be nice for life to slow down.
So what is next for me?
Well I am looking for my next gig. I’d like to get further along on my writing and coding projects. Hopefully catch up on everything and get some of that “slow down” and “stabilize” going on…