Yesterday I landed in Toronto. I’m home again. Back to the normal and ordinary. But even as the airplane hit the tarmack, I knew things will never be quite the same. The things I experienced, saw, heard and understood during my short stay in Europe, has changed my perspective, attitude and expectations. I won’t go into the details, because there are far too many. And far too many of them are deeply personal. But I’m glad that I went there, and I gained a lot. I’m still processing and digesting everything still.
With that said, I will return to my daily blogging schedule. I hope that no new tragedy, will force me to change my daily routine. Because there is comfort in a routine, no matter how mundane and un-extraordinary it may be. However I realize now more than ever, I have to move forward on my personal goals. I feel a bit behind in some areas of my life. I have a huge amount of work to do. And at the moment, there is a lot of catching up I need to do. Life will continue its intense pace for next little while. This year shows no signs of slowing down, but rather accelerating. It feels exhilarating and downright frightening.
I’m still mentally organizing my thoughts and goals. However a few things have come to the forefront. I need to learn some more French, German, Italian and Polish. I need to brush up and learn those languages, since they will come in very handy when I try to stay in touch with my friends and family in Europe. Also I need to learn to drive. I must follow through on my professional and artistic goals. A number of my friends are expecting and excited to see the results of my efforts. I also need to learn to deal with difficult and tricky situations in a more professional, efficient, pragmatic, diplomatic and proper manner. And then there are all things, minutae and nice-to-haves… Thinking about all of this is tiring me out. So I’ll stop with it here.
I’m also planning to return to Europe, most likely sometime this year. And this may be sooner than later. So more planning, thinking, et cetera.
Anyways, I’m back! Did you miss me?