Poised to Strike

A week has past since my first full day in Canada, after my vacation.  Somethings have changed, but others have not.  No life changing changes so I can get back to my usual life.  Almost everything is back to normal, but I am not quite back to my daily routines.  Hence the lack of daily blog posts.  Hopefully I can get back to blogging and keeping up with all the small routines I used to do.  However, I feel that I’m almost ready to take on a larger project.   Unlike last time, I will not try to complicate things by juggling too much.  That would be too stressful and too distracting.  I do have my eye on getting back to my novel writing though.  I feel I’m ready this time to move my projects forward substantially.

Returned from Afar

My plane touched in Toronto Thursday afternoon around 3:15-ish.  And officially my regular schedule resumed on Friday.  However in reality, I’m still behind on a number of things, and everything is still one gigantic mess.  I do plan to get back to blogging on a daily basis.  But at the moment  I’ve got a ton of e-mails to answer, phone calls to make, meetings to schedule and a bunch of other administrative stuff to do.  Hence I’ll keep the updates short and sweet until I can dig myself out of this mess.

Before I Lay Down My Pen and My Head

Things are going fairly smoothly for the trip.  Not yet at the point at where I can say I’m packed and ready.  And there remains a good chunk of work to do.  However plans are proceeding forward.

While I look forward to my trip, lately I’ve felt like my self-esteem has taken quite a beating.  I don’t know if this signals a slow but steady burnout.  Or rather realization and acceptance of my current position and circumstances in life.  I’m a bit disappointed.  I still feel I’m far from where I want to be in the near future.  And reality seems to close more doors than open them.  If some potential opportunity opens, it feels more like a tease than an opportunity.  Realistically, I feel I’ve exhausted all the straightforward options without compromising or risking my future on some future high-risk scheme.  This realization is quite unnerving.  I’m not sure what else I can do, aside from doing what I already am.  I’ve never enjoyed the prospect of casting the dice and hoping for the best.  This is fine in a game.  In life not so much, since for action there are far reaching consequences.  In life, a sane logical strategy needs to be in place.  Still I can’t see how I can achieve my end-goals, circumstances being as they are.  I find solace in my writing, and little else.

I’m still going to blog on highly irregular basis, definitely until after my trip.  Or most likely after I finish writing the rough draft of the novel.  My novel feels like the only meaningful contribution I can make at the moment.  Everything else depends on external factors, beyond my control.

Offline for a Bit

Well folks, it looks like I’ll be  mostly offline for the next couple of weeks.  It is a fairly busy time at work, and with my upcoming trip to Europe, I just don’t have time to blog.  I might blog when I get there, but we’ll see how things go… Anyways take care for now.

Identi.ca Updates for 2009-08-13

  • Gonna take another whack at dev work… Hoping more progress this time around. #
  • Hmm… feeling productive again. Just need to do a few more things today and I’ll be quite satisfied. #
  • A bit more correspondences and write-ups before I can take a wack at creating a !drupal theme for justCheckers. #

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Identi.ca Updates for 2009-08-12

  • Going to try using !ubuntu as a sandboxed dev system. It would be awesome to integrate into my development process. #
  • It burns!!! I’m not sure why but that last e-mail feels like it was lined with exasperation and a plasma charge. Ouch. #
  • If there were no bugs in software, all of us programmers would be out selling friendship bracelets instead. Think about the programmers!!! #

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Identi.ca Updates for 2009-08-10

  • Excellent! All relevant things done, now on to some writing and hacking. I’m on a roll today. #
  • Please ask me about how I feel about denormalized generic data models. Remember to be wearing an asbestos suit when doing so. #
  • Alright! Onto dinner and some dealing with some physical world problems. Junglishly hot today. #

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Identi.ca Updates for 2009-08-07

  • Awake finally. #
  • Managing multiple profiles on different websites is a bit of a pain. Still they are mighty convenient at times. #
  • Excellent, refactored my code. Now on to doing the same thing, except modifying the data! I wish there was a identi.ca client for S60… #
  • Done and done. Work week over, the homework week begins. 😀 #

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