Reality Shifting

Well I am back, after a long delay. Work has finally enveloped my entire life. There are only work, and rest cycles. The slow, dive into the abyss of automaton (drone) life continues. Everyday, I seem to care less and less about my fate. So gradual… I feel oblivious to everything. I loathe this feeling.

I have not written a blog in a while. Most of my friends are out working, moving, on vacation… so no one really has any real time for me. Except Dima, but he is moving… so the weekly walks might also become rarer. Now none of my friends will be living anywhere near me. This is most distressing and upsetting. My only saving grace is the slow process of writing of story. And I mean slow.

I plan to get my other previous non-posted blogs up soon. Maybe very soon.

Dog-Tired Day

Well hell did come to tea today. I was so tired at work that it was ridiculous. Tired like a dog. Fortunately I got to work on a good machine and a slow product. Managed to survive, barely. Almost finished with my backlog of blogs. Yay! Couldn’t find my glasses so I had to use some older ones. Ouch!

Got back home and crashed into bed. I later got up just to make food.

Survived! Living the Life of a Crab.

Phew! Survived both my exams! Actually did better than I thought I would on the data structures, while the systems programming one was harder than I imagined it to be. Now, if only these results will lead to me passing the data structures course. Anyhow, two weights off my shoulder.

So my “summer” has begun. Most of my time is spend at home… (told you my life could be boring) …dealing with house work. Basically I have become a drone again. 🙁 Also, sometimes it seems that my parents are not even really appreciative of my work. Well I guess I just have to make sure everything is neat, tidy, and done before anyone notices. Naturally that leads to me scurrying around like a little cleaner crab. If only I could as inconspicuous as one. Then I could avoid being noticed, and getting shouted at for being lazy. I am probably exaggerating greatly here. But, hey this is just a blog, and not necessarily reality.

Feeling, sort of isolated with the rest of the world. Everyone else is probably studying still, or partying… or off to work. Really miss being offline, and not having a chance to chat with Kat, or Dima. Sigh… I am a bit of an isolationist, but I hate being lonely. Go figure. Not much has been going on in my sphere of influence on the web. Ah where are you Kat? I miss you. Sorry about not seeing you after the exams, I somehow missed you leaving the room…

Anyhow, I am experiencing happiness of surviving the sandstorm of data structures, but the sadness of standing alone. Strange but often feeling for me… crap, why am I ranting like some depressed maniac???