Realizations

This week I realized:

  • How little I really know about the important stuff: like faith.  There are so many knowledge to be gained in fields related to this.  (Thanks Marika for pointing that out to me with your questions.)
  • Hold on and act upon your ideals.  You can not please everyone.  But you will please the people who share your ideals and goals.  And you will gain respect from others for having the audacity to not cower or hand-wring when your ideals are questioned.
  • Love will find you some day.  It doesn’t come in convenient times or locations.  But wait and hold out for the best stuff.  (But have I?  Maybe or maybe not.)
  • Continued steady accumulation of something doesn’t mean it will accumlate in a linear fashion.
  • You must be in touch with both reality but also with ideas that define you.
  • The tortoise was right.  Working on anything in a steady continual pace achieves much more than quick bursts of anything.  (Remember my stone tortoise story?)
  • Treasure the time for rest.  Adequate acts as a better multiplier of what you get done, than working longer hours.  (To the discoverers of coffee beans, coffee and caffeine, thank you for helping those who broke their proper sleep cycles.)
  • If you think there is a better way of doing things, there probably is.  However the better may not be applicable to your situation for various reasons: lack of resources, restrictions et cetera.
  • Let things happen.  Don’t be disappointed when they don’t.  (Thanks Caroline for that insight.)

26th Time Around the Sun

I made it!  I made it around the sun for the 26th time.  Quite amazing that I made it in one piece too, considering how fast the Earth travels around the Sun.  Hopefully, I’ll repeat the same feat next year.

Caroline asked as we walked on the Toronto Island on Saturday, how do I feel about being one year older.  I went into a long winded philosophical debate with myself.  And then I shortened it down to: I don’t feel differently than I was a year before.  I gained some more experience.  I feel that I’ll better handle the future thanks to said knowledge.  And I’m fairly happy with where I am in life.  It could be better, but I can’t complain.  Still I look around me, and can’t help but feel a tinge of anxiety.  Many of my friends have moved on to the next stage in their life.  And I’m just drifting along, occasionally kicking forward frantically without much success.  And the inertia worries me, because one doesn’t grow if one is not moving forward.  But again I’m not in a bad position or place.  So I have mixed feelings about my reaching 26 years of age.

I did enjoy my weekend though.  I saw my brother succeed in Air Cadets.  I walked around the gorgeous Toronto Islands with my friend Caroline.  I got to play a wargame with my coworker Shehan and his wife yesterday.  I didn’t conqueror the Polynesian Islands as I planned to, and the game dragged on.  But I enjoyed myself throughly.

So what do I want to do before I hit 27?  I guess more of the same.  Get closer to achieving my long term goals.  Work on being a better person.  And experience in the world more.  This next year should be fun.

Weekends in Toronto, Weekdays on the Run

The sun is way up in the sky, already changed its colour four times (red, orange, yellow and now whitish yellow thanks to atmospheric effects on the light of a Class G star).  I on the other hand, woke up, scrambled to get ready, drank a coffee and am trying to catch up.  My life has become busy again.  But in a good way for once.  I’m too busy to occupy my mind with wandering thoughts or sad navel gazing.  Instead I get to occupy myself with the sole goal of squeezing as much out of the time I have each day.  And also making my life richer.

So where does the busyiness come from?  From doing things and meeting people of course!

This Saturday after a round of volleyball and cutting the grass, I met up with Caroline in downtown Toronto.  I didn’t realize that Toronto had its own Times Square-like square.  I’m talking about the Younge and Dundas Square.  While it has a less than original name, it is just as busy as its New York counterpart.  People milling about, large screens flashing ads, street musicians playing, et cetera.  I rushed into the square when I got there, expecting to be the one to be late.  However as usual, Caroline arrived fashionably late so I didn’t need to apologize. 😀

After a round of mango bubble tea and some computer shopping, we went to watch Ghosts of Girlfriends Past.  Now I’m not a huge fan of chick flicks.  But this one movie was pretty good.  In essence a Christmas Carole-style plot about a “player” who has to get in touch with his feelings, the realization of how many ladies he hurt in his long line of escapades and maybe come to grips with the person who really loves him.  Anyways I won’t say more to not ruin the plot for those who haven’t seen it.  I enjoyed it.

After the movie, I lost and found my cellphone. Duh!  And we went out for dinner at the Richtree.  Good food, interesting concept, and of course wonderful company.  And we ended the day with almost-midnight tea.  Thanks Caroline.

Yesterday was a busy day of yard and kitchen work oddly enough.  And so while I needed to reply to a bunch of e-mails, and get some other work done… I simply fell asleep from sheer exhaustion.  So today I must deal with my inbox, finish some unfinished business and get around to dealing with my more long term projects.  Ok, so I’m off now… later this week I have a few events planned, and I need to plan some more.  So while I’m busy, I’m happy to be rid of those quiet, relatively uneventful days.